“Our subconscious minds have no sense of humor, play no jokes and cannot tell the difference between reality and an imagined thought or image. What we continually think about eventually will manifest in our lives.”
- Sidney Madwed
You really do create your life and the circumstances you're in whether it's where you want to be, or not....
Say your confident, You'll be more confident, say you'll be happy, you will be happy, say it's a good day, and it will be the
When I first moved to Utah I was so stressed out of my mind and not myself.
.Lets rewind a bit….
I graduated a year early from high school in Gilbert Arizona. I had no game plan to graduate early and go to school or
what I would do once I graduated I just decided I wanted to and once I set my mind to something I don't give up. So I
graduated…Uh what do I do now?! All of my friends either went to college or still go to high school.. I wasn't about to just
be one of those lazy butts who sits at home and has to wait for everyone to get out of school. I realized I could not let this
happen.
Some people just think I want to speed in life and grow up..I get that a lot. And even though I may look like I am 20, or 24
like Cameron says, once you get to know me the age drops hah! Not sure if that is okay or not..but ill take it! But no, I
didn't want to just speed up my life..besides you are only 18 once, have fun!( In a totally drug-free way… Don't have that
kind of fun;) )
One day I had a thought.. Utah? And you have to know something about me.. I don't just get up and move..I didnt WANT
to leave Gilbert. This was one of those thoughts that would keep coming back to me even when I pushed it away.. And
when that happens I listen.. They always say listen to your gut, well your gut is your spirit.
So, I finally opened up to the idea of Utah.. The craziest part of this all was my dad one morning came to me and told me
that he had one of his midnight ideas that I should move to Utah.. well we can't not listen now! So in less than 2 days I
found a replacement for my nanny job, I packed up everything and drove to Utah. It was so easy…Everything lined up
perfectly. That is one way I know that it was suppose to happen.
OK so forward now to Utah.. I had no friends, had no idea how to get around ( Siri and I are best friends now) always sat
in the back at my new singles ward, and could not stand stupid Utah drivers…
Yup that was me…until one rainy day at Dans grocery store.
I was in the worst mood. The rain bugged me ( Arizonian) Utah drivers bugged me, I didn't have a job yet, and I was just
alone. I walked into Dans with the attitude of, " Wow today sucks." I didn't think it really showed until this old man sitting
on a bench where all the carts were said, " Wow you look happy! SMILE! " He gave me this smile but I took it like he was
making fun of me. I know it wasn't that big of deal but my first thoughts were, " Who is this guy?! He doesn't know me! He's
just one of those rude grumpy old men." I hurried and walked away and bought my groceries.
As I was checking out I leaned over to look and see if that same old man was sitting there. Crap. I then stopped myself thinking what the heck? It wasn't even that rude.. Ugh fine I am going to just give him a smile and hurry out.
As I passed him I all of the sudden got the impression to stop and talk to him. I know thats weird but I did. I told him how I
didn't realize that my bad mood could show and that I was sorry I was rude. I then went on about how I hated the cold and
the Utah drivers. We talked for a few minutes about how I moved here and we talked about his sweet wife who grew up
in ARIZONA! He laughed as he told me jokes about how she was such a baby with the cold when they first got married.
He then said, " You are ALWAYS given the choice to be happy. It contagious too.. Even on those hard days just fake it
until you become happy."
And that is just what I did. I realized I had been so selfish! I began to think of the homeless that I passed every day in Salt
lake city, Stephanie Nielson, a family friend who lost her two twin baby girls, and this old man whose wife had passed
away... and I was mad about a little rain and bad drivers?
I then got up and gave him a huge smile. He said, " There ya go! It's like you just got married again!" Uhhh.. Not sure
where that one came from but it made me laugh.
That day was beautiful. It is still one of my favorite memories. YOU decide if you are happy, YOU decide. Since I have
taken on this concept I have been so blessed. I made AMAZING friends, got an amazing job, and learned to drive like a
boss ;). So since then I have made sure to smile to grumpy mean people, even if they don't smile back. It helped me that
day so I will pay it forward. I am not saying I don't have bad days..we all do.. But we do need to remember that our
happiness, sadness, or whatever mood is contagious to those around us. Fake it until you become it.
CHOOSE to be HAPPY :).
xoxo,